There was a moment during soccer practice yesterday when I wondered how long we'd be trying this out. He sits out 80% of the practice. That a lie. It's more like 90%. But he wants to be there. That's what he says. I even asked him if he wanted to keep coming. I wanted to be sure. Then my wise sister-in-law said to me, "Colleen, don't pull him out. You know he just needs more time to warm up to it." And she was right. I was just having a moment of over thinking it. As is my curse.
So we will go. And I will let go of all of my expectations and allow him to decide how this plays out. I am pretty dang curious though. I wonder if the urge to play will suddenly click or if he will just hang out on the sidelines picking grass. And don't get me wrong. Picking grass is totally fine with me. He is just four. Picking grass and rolling around is bliss, no?
All that being said, he has a good amount of sideline training in already...
I'm good! You guys go on ahead.
Taking my ball and sitting out. Humph.
And even though it's just one or two times during practice that he actually goes out onto the field with his team, these moments are a big deal. And yes, I cried about that shit. Duh. Just look at that form! He is centered and all kinds of balanced. #I'mThatMom
So if he doesn't end up playing in the games at first or at all, it's ok. Because, you see, it has come as a bit of a shock to this guy that not everyone on the field gets their own ball. That a game has JUST ONE stinking ball that everyone fights for. That's pretty upsetting right now for Mr. Pants. Hopefully he will come around to the idea. But if not, he can always keep the ones on the sidelines company. And also tidy.
Guess who lined these up?
Either way, it's all good. He has taken big-giant-proud strides just walking out there onto the field and into the scramble of kids the few times that he has. That is huge for my little introvert. And I know that some of his bravery comes from trusting his coach. A very special coach who just happens to also be his uncle. And his uncle knows him well enough to know that he shouldn't push hard but that he should push a little bit just to nudge him out. Just to encourage him to step on out of his comfort zone and that when he does his Coach Uncle Matt will be there with him. That's enough to make this mama cry the buckets. Oh yeah, you know I did.
The first big game is this Sunday. I'm sure I will be reporting and posting pics over onFacebook
. Stay tuned. Go, Blue Dragons, Go!